Katy Kidwell

Have you ever been told to just be still and listen for God, and felt your whole body resist the instruction? Or sat down to journal your way toward some inner truth, pen ready, and found nothing but static? I have. More times than I can count. For a long time I thought this meant I was failing at the spiritual life, that if only I tried harder to quiet my mind, the wisdom I was reaching for would finally surface. But I've started to wonder if the problem was never me. Maybe I was knocking at...

The Wheel Turns Even Through a Screen: Nature Based Spiritual Direction in the Age of Zoom Earlier this spring I found myself mid-sentence telling my spiritual director about a deep longing I couldn't quite find the words for. My heart was aching and I was circling around a question of whether God was present in the midst of my grief, when two crows landed on the fence outside my window. I stopped talking. She noticed, paused, and asked what had caught my eye. Crows have arrived at thresholds...

Made to Wonder: Spiritual Direction for the Neurodivergent Soul There is a particular kind of exhaustion that comes from spending years trying to think in shapes that don’t fit you. Many neurodivergent people know it well. The constant effort required to translate your inner world into something legible, linear, and neatly packaged. This invisible labour never quite stops. The fatigue and loneliness that comes with never quite feeling seen, known or fully understood is very real. I am AuDHD...